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Today is Tuesday, May 3rd, and so much has happened.  A brain tumor.  More yoga and walking.  A little less combat.  Weight dropping.  Spirit rising.  Back in the city, where I belong.  Looking for good photos to give you, organizing my crazy files. 

And a new President!  So much to say, more than beating up on him -- that will only take us so far.  Time to hit the streets, challenge the fears that he represents.  Don't be afraid, no tengan miedo.  If I survived a massive brain tumor -- big as a grapefruit -- we can survive and transcend this.

More tomorrow.  One day a week from now on.
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Can I get a VIA Bus after my cerveza?

Okay, so today I met with Juan Lopez, who, like me, rides the VIA bus.

If you live in the city, the bus is pretty good if you're going north/south.  It's the crosstown buses and the 551 Looper that drives me crazy.  I wish they were more colorful, like in Mexico, and that the drivers were allowed to play their music!  This Calvinist heritage!  But I love the bus.  Babies, tattoos, the elderly, ride the bus.
Humanity.  For reals.

Today, Juan said something really profound.

"If the city is so concerned about DWIs (Los borrachos, he means), then why doesn't VIA offer
24-hour service during Fiesta?"

Are you listening, VIA?

I know you offer special service for the basketball games, the Rodeo,
And God knows what else...

Or is the City wanting the fines from the DWIs or maybe just wants to put more borrachos in jail?

http://www.viasmartmove.com

The tragedy of my family

I am the oldest of eight.  I am going to tell you something my siblings won't face -- the drugging and drinking that has destroyed us as a family.

Alcohol.  Drugs.  All my siblings, addicted now or in the past, except me and the disabled Daniel.  The reason for prison, death, and jail and/or -- for three of my brothers -- each a separate story but the same one too.

My father, Roberto Renaud, passed away a few weeks ago.  He was 95 years old, and had spent the last three years in a nursing home here in San Antonio, Texas.  He was a brutal father, but he tried.  He tried.  A sharecropper who worked infinite hours in the Texas Panhandle.  A WWII veteran.

His family, an old Tejano family, has a family plot, a camposanto, outside of Raymondville.  It's all the family has left after the U.S. Mexican War.  It's a windswept acre of land a few miles from the Gulf of Mexico that includes our family's graves beginning in the 20th century.  My grandparents, great-uncles and aunt…

Tray on was on my bus the other day

Because of my brain surgery, I haven't been able to drive.  A few weeks ago, two teenage black men got on the 550 bus during rush hour.  In Texas, if you don't have a car, that is a liability, because we really don't have good mass trans.

The taller kid was in a mood, and they sat at the front, which is generally reserved for mothers with babies, elders, and wheelchair riders.  The young man, let's call him Trey, sat besides an older, dishevled, white guy who was taking all the leg room, rocking to his IPod music.

Trey told the white guy to make room, but the white guy, let's call him Mr. Z, didn't move an inch.  He was not about to be instructed by someone like him.  I could smell his fear.  Their voices got louder and louder, amidst the clamor of voices, the smoky, sweaty, murmuring of working-class accents, and the roaring bus.

Young man, what has your mother taught you?

The teenager looked at the older black woman behind him, and stopped fidgeting and elb…

My Sister the Buddhist Who

Susana didn't come to my mother, her mother's, funeral in 2000.
Says she's not coming to my father's funeral, who is in hospice care in a nursing home.
And hasn't visited our disabled brother in twelve years.

I know she thinks she's too good for Texas.  Well, so is Wendy Davis.

She is a licensed therapist, and a dharma leader in the Bay Area.

D H A R M A.  She yelled this to me as I was recovering from brain surgery in February.

Tell me, how did she enter the helping and healing professions?



Los perros finos de San Antonio

They are all over the city, running geese with tails and woofs.  Many  have mange, others have the signs of wounded battles, and others are like these, bones and waiting for the last day.  Los perros flacos, and I saw this one a few weeks ago when I was reading at the Memorial Library on Culebra.  There are two of them:  one is a black pit, I call him "Negro," who loves me now, and this white one, "La Flaca," her bones crackle when she walks.  Negro runs the show, I guess.


You need to get rid of these dogs, the homeowner says.  She says that people dump dogs here, and the City hasn't been able to catch them.  Since I've been feeding them, they come to me, and Negro jumped into my van this morning.  He's ready to go.  You ready for the doggie garden?  It was the deer strips, I think.